Faery
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No we can't afford to save our environment.... How ever we can afford to destroy it :(
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Post by Faery on Jun 7, 2004 2:42:40 GMT -5
Ok here is a great place to let our anger out on. LET IT RIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just try to keep the langaue content down a little. Just go through what you got up to in the days, state the date in each enrty.
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Faery
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No we can't afford to save our environment.... How ever we can afford to destroy it :(
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Post by Faery on Jun 7, 2004 2:47:35 GMT -5
Time: 4:455 pm. Date: june 7th Mon __________ Well today like most week days I went to school. absolutly fasinating. I got me history and geo exam results back. Me Teacher said I did good in history but in geo I wasn't so good. He said i should take up anceint history and modern for next year. And I also got my commerce exam back whoa bad mark! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH.
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Post by DarkRain on Jun 7, 2004 2:51:01 GMT -5
current: 6/7/04 2:54 a.m
for:6/6/04
well to day i did nothing...its a sunday and i felt lazy...
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Post by Wicca Chick on Jun 7, 2004 10:50:31 GMT -5
10:50 AM - AT SCHOOL june 7th, 04
yah i should go now...my friends gonna get pissed if i dont work on the project...shes been doing....aobut everything.... yay i get to see Indi (horsey) after school...cant wait, its sucha nice warm day! LOVE IT!!!
blessings, wicca chick
awesome idea faery - so everyone just post whatever you want here concerning anything!!! ;D
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SilverDragonLily
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~She changes everything She touches, and everything She touches changes~
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Post by SilverDragonLily on Jun 7, 2004 22:53:16 GMT -5
i am free at last from that prison!! yay hours ago i just graduated!! hehe it was cool since we had it outside..and the sun began to set right at the begining when they were giving speeches...but the only thing i would love to vent about is the fact that they make us suffer for 13 years and then make us dread graduation because it had to be perfect and we practiced in the hot sun:( also...i can't believe it..but they had a minister and two different times we had to rise for prayer:o lol my friend was in front of me and she doesn't realy belong to a religion so she was just standing there stairing forward and i was changing the words to match God and Goddess in my head... also...today i saw a snake-i was driving...but i was scared that it crawled up under my tires-my mom promised it didn;t tho and i was wondering if it was a sign or a symbol that today after i graduate i shed my skin and move on to a new begining...into the future...no longer a student at high school..but an adult in college-anyone think this because i remember that the Goddess can change her form to a snake and a snake sheds its skin for a new begining... well anyhow i went to my friend's house after practice and for Christmas she had bought me a small, pocket size pack of tarot cards...but i was tell her how my mom and i were at a church yardsale..and i was looking at books and found a pack of tarot cards for ten cents my friend was shocked and suggested that if she were i should would recognize and see that as a sign that magic can exist even through strict religions..again anyone think that this is possible...
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Post by DarkRain on Jun 7, 2004 23:02:45 GMT -5
6/7/04 10:51 p.m.
today started out alright...i had a sub in Physics and we did nothing...lol...the rest of the day i just went about my buisness...then i came home...my little sis had Gymnastics today...so i was home alone from like 4ish to 8...durring that time i talked to my friend erika on the phone...umm...she is...damaged(no nicer way to say it)...she's had a realy nuts life (she told me the details...and its pretty f**ked up)...and she cut herself today...i expected that since she was in a unhappy mood earlier...well...i told her to promise me that she wouldnt cut too deep (she couldnt promice that she wouldnt cut at all) but she said that she couldnt...hmm...she is a different person when she is like this...but i have faith that she will be able to regain controle...(she is seeing a professional dfor help)...and i talked to my best friends gf...she cut today too..and she has begun to smoke again...she sais that she is too sressed...understandable concidering an unmentionable person who is not a very good person who she is forced to be in contact with...hmm...i am ok...yet it is impossable tobe in contact with ppl and not be changed...i am going to pray aloot tonight that my froends pull throught this ok...and i will not let ANY of this affect me like it did in the past...(i ussed to get depressed kinda like taking their depression and giving it to myself...i used to get soo bad that i cut...i still have the scars to prove it...left arm just below the elbow...on the top of my arm...3 still visable of the 14 that i had...)
ok...gunna go and meditate now...*deep breaths*....tomorrow is another day...
May the Goddess shine upone my friends and i to give us the strenght we need to make it throught this in one piece...
Blessings Dark Rain
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Post by Syri Whiteflame on Jun 8, 2004 3:35:34 GMT -5
6.7.2k4 (techniqually the 8th; it's after midnight) i'll pray on your behalves (sp?) as well DarkRain -_- it is tricky not to let things like that effect you. esp if your the one playing conceler. that balance between caring and letting it drag you down is tricky. i had a friend who cut, she was suicidal as well. i'm glad to say she's much better now. partly in due to our pact. it was a trade so to speak a life for a life and one negative habbit for another. she cut, and i ... well i ODed on tylonal ... so when she found out what i was doing, she tried to make me promise to stop just as i had tried to make her promise not to cut. in the end we formed the pact. no tylonal, no razors, and no sucided. lol then we joked that i'd start cutting and she'd take up the tylonal, but it was pure joke since neither of us is into the other's form of ... 'dealing with the pain' i guess you'd call it. i have near misses and so does she ... but we both keep the other in mind, so it's like ... it's her cutting me and me poisining her and that really changes the picture. i had one slip but never again, because i'm afraid ... well if i slip then doesn't that open the door for her to slip too? and from there who knows ... so never again. i'm just greatful we have eachother .... anyway.... well nothing spechial today. taking care of these kittens that were under our house. we're pretty sure the mother was killed by cyotes -_- it's sad how many cats we've lost like that and this is the second batch of kittens we've adopted because of it. they're all asleep on my lap right. it's very cute ^-^ something about the twilight tonight, just before it was completely dark, just felt so amazing to me tonight. i was out side for only a few moments and felt the magick fill my heart. i've been in a praise the god and goddess mood ever since i put on conjure one, a tape i usually play durning my rituals, since i had to stay with the kittens and couldn't do a ritual, but i think when i get back to my room i'll start one in honor of the lord and lady, and on behalf of a few friends .... other wise i'm just trying to make it through the last little bit of homework i have for the school year. then i have to start packing to move next week *sigh* time goes by so quickly. seems like only yesterday the school year was just beginning. oh well, it's kind of nice in a way i guess. still, i hate it when life seems to slip right past you before you've even opened your eyes to start the day, ya know?
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Faery
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No we can't afford to save our environment.... How ever we can afford to destroy it :(
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Post by Faery on Jun 8, 2004 5:43:59 GMT -5
7:38pm june 8 Arg I'm glad I'm not the only fruitloop that mutilated their own self. I've only got two visible scars on my wrists, I also use get a lighter burned my arms, and well my thighs and my knees have got all sorts of patterns thats why I dont wear skirts and shorts any more unless they go past my knees, well yes I tended to take other peoples pain to myself, when my best friend got depression I took it out on myself, it really hurted me, so I cutted myself up. Well at least I haven't done anything to hurt myself in a year ;D <<<< me now. Ok acutal diary entery now! Well today was good, well sorta. speaking of cutting up I saw one my friends had attacked her wrist! ARG! and it was the right way to! I didn't have the courage to say anything to.) Not much really happened at school, all but wen i went down town I ran into a few teachers and my parents had a good ole chat. Mainly about fishing and Queensland nothing bad about me, one of them even said I was a star student and make a good historian . How embarrassing. My cuzin is going through a hard time to, her best friend moved in a year ago, and she's sorta messed up, her father so called molested her. So she moved in. And that ungrateful B!tch had ago at my cuzin and her mother, so my cuz's mother rang up her actual mother and father and told her to come and get her, now Amy's mother n father is another state away, and didn't arrive til 5 in the morning now Amy didn't even say good my to her best friend. Now my cousin is sooo upset. Now if you were molested by ur would you move back in with your father??? So I'm kind of doubting it now. *~Bright Blessings~*
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Post by DarkRain on Jun 8, 2004 22:39:09 GMT -5
6/8/04 10:26 p.m.
well today was...ok...i got this note from my best friend's (tom) gf (sarah)...
Thank you all for being there for me when i needed you. i still feel the pain and hurt that can onky go away with passing time. no one can help any more than they have and now i just need to be alone. last night i made decisions without any thought at all i just did it. i didn't mean to post(refering to a message board my friends and i are members of) and i didn't mean to cut. if i hurt any of you i'm sorry, none of you are the problem or the solution. just knowing that your there for me and that you care is enough. ilove you all, thank you so much for your support.
yeah...my other friend is a little better...but not like her self...i just pray the goddess lights her path...
i had a cleaning today (dentist)...than i bought anew pent. necklace...i like it...its small...easier to hide from perents...
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Post by Syri Whiteflame on Jun 8, 2004 23:13:15 GMT -5
6.8.2k4
lol smaller is better i suppose, though when i wear mine no one even gives it a second glance *shrug* so when i wear it i like that it's visible. it's large and on a chocker with a thick black band, so it seriously shows. when i wear it's because i want it to show.
anyway, i'm thinking of coming out of the broom closet to a few people. my brother has pretty much guessed, so i don't have to figure out how to tell him. he's pretty laid back too so he won't give me any guff about it and it might actually stop him from .. negative comments i could not before stop him from saying because it would require explaining, and we're close so i'm glad he knows. now there's my spose ... we're talking on IM - we don't live together yet, that's where i'm moving next month - and i want to just say it .... i was waiting before until i was sure this was my path, but now i am sure and we share everything i'm just ... worried because she's been having spiritual problems lately, and i'm not sure i guess how it'd be for me to come along and say oh it's so great i found my true faith ... and yeah ... so that's what i'm struggling with today. other than that nothing much. having trouble getting to bed before like 2/4am lately which bites ... but atleast summer is on it's way so i can sleep in and get my scedual back before that camp thing and my summer job and stuff.
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Faery
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Post by Faery on Jun 8, 2004 23:56:04 GMT -5
2:07 pm Weds june
Arg coming out of the broom closet is the hardest thing. And yeah small is good myn is about the size of an aussie 5 cent peice.
Well nothing much really happened today, i havent seen amy ( that aint her real name though) around, which is a good thing. I came home early today I couldn't be really bothered doing sport, my back is playing up again. Well thats all.
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SilverDragonLily
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Post by SilverDragonLily on Jun 9, 2004 20:29:47 GMT -5
i'm sorry i don't understand why people cut..but i do have friends who cut so i know some things about it...my one friend..we can call her..uhh Beth..well anyhow she was my best friend since 9th grade..she drew and wrote and was soo talented! i wanted to be just like her...she is like my hero..my role model..who i would want to be-i don't look up to people like Brittney Spears or actors...well except Enya now..well anyhow i began drawing like her and even writing...and she was into Wicca and so i began looking into that too...but not everything fit me..i didn't like everything..i learned that i am not goth..it just doesn;'t fit me...but i was always there for her..and she always gave me advice but she began cutting after she broke up with her bf...and i knew nothing about it..but it was obvious and so i didn't know what to do:-/ i decided to ask a trusted teacher and she told me just to talk to my friend and she would have the one guidance counseler just talk to her and see if she wanted help...but one day she did tell me somewhat why she was so depressed...and i just told her i would always be there for her...and i hope she never finds out that i told the guidance counseler but i was concerned and knew nothing about it...but now she has a wonderful job and she told me she has matured and grew up alot over the years-she began doing drugs, and even stealing-but she said she grew up and doesn't do either as often.. now for the diary entry: i held my kitten for the first time he is white with orangeish yellow spots..kind of like the moon if you look like it...pure white with darkner spots-the yellow and orange- lol so i decided if it was a girl i would name her Artemis and if it was a boy i would name him Eros...but its a boy and i have no clue how to pronounce Eros:-/ so if anyone knows..please tell me:) thanks and in a week i can bring him home!! yay
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Post by DarkRain on Jun 9, 2004 20:43:39 GMT -5
cutting (for me) was to give a phisical appearance to how i felt...in my own mind....i would use visualization to picture in my minds eye that the blood running down my arm as the fear and doubt leaving my physical body...then by washing away the blood i would see myself as "clensed"...free of thoese emotions...untill the next time i was down...then the cycle would start again...but since i started practacing wicca i know thet there are better ways to do that...i dont need the blade to "clense" my soul...meditation can do thet just as efectivle...and with less mess...but...yeah....thats what i felt when i did it...
6/9/04 8:41 p.m.
well i did pretty much nothin today...in physics we did some review for the final...in alg 2 we did the same thing...lunch was uneventfull...Drawing was ok...i finished the last assignment...(to draw a device to solve a problem in my life(i made a device that"opens the mind" for acceptance of new ideas...))...then Adv Drafting was ok...my groupe tryed to put together pour bridge (we need to make a bridge outa balsa wood...and have it hold like over 50 lbs.)...and then i wnt home (btw...i only have 4 classes a day...4 85 min classes)... and then nothin...boring uneventful day...
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Post by DarkRain on Jun 9, 2004 23:59:13 GMT -5
6/10/04 12:02 a.m.
i just had an argument with one of my friends i got an Im from another friend...she was asking me to explain something i posted on a message board...and i explained...and i got the feeling that whan sh typed that she understood that she was being truthful...whell...then i told this to my other friend and we got into an argument about it...durring the convo i just "felt" like he was trying to sow doubt in me...trying to make me doubt my friend who needs her friends to help her throught the tough time she is going through...i tryed to explain that i just "knew" when she was telling the truht...but he just kept bringing up the topic of how i am a fool...and i shouldnt listen to evry thing that is typed to me on AIM...ugh...i signed off on him in anger...i just couldnt take the constant feeling of doubt...*deep sigh*...i guess i just needed to vent that...it just felt like he was TRYING to break my friend and i apart...*sigh*...i dunno...
comments/advice please... BB Dark Rain
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Faery
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Post by Faery on Jun 10, 2004 1:59:54 GMT -5
Silver dragon lily- Im not to sure how you'd pronounce it either, hopefuly someone else does! Dark Rain- Try not to worry about it, your friend will come around, keep doing what your doing, help your friend that is in need! ___________ 4:05 pm june 10th Well today was a bludge day at school. I had another incounter with a friend saying the pantacle I was wearing was sign of the devil *Sigh* Then the other friend said no it's a witchs thing... he goes ah ah what is it? I replied its a pentacle. Then the other dude goes. "Yeah witchs are devil worshippers to." I gave up and said. (lets call him john) "Yeah John I have a devil statue in my bedroom and I kiss it's ass everynite and sacrifice rats to it." With complete sarcasm. HE goes "yeah I do to." I shook my head and walked off. Ah pathetic really it is. For now on my going to let the narrow minded people think what they what, it cant be helped. can it?
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