Our diaries.

[SilverDragonLily]

faery-its ok...maybe i can find the pronunciation online somewhere...there has to be a dictionary of deities..lol
i had that problem before, this one girl told me that i was wearing the devil's symbol on my ring...i just nodded and said ok and didn't fight with her...it was a week before graduation and i hope that the people in college are more open minded...
i did almost nothing today except sleep and watch tv...lol..so isn't anyone out of school yet? i guess i'm lucky i graduated..i don't think everyone is out in our area..oh well..but i will start college in August and i am having nightmares about it..lol the other night i dreamed i lost my way and couldn't find my class:o and i didn't get my text books and so i got yelled at well...thats all i can think to write...

[Faery]

Ah well yeah get that. No there is this girl who's out of school, but I don't think she's been online latly. Where is she?
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11:44pm june 11
Well today I did nothing, watched jerry springer riki lake all those silli shows all day. I've been getting headaches all over again latly, I havent had them for over a year, their starting to bug me.
Well thats all.

[Syri Whiteflame]

dang it
my comp screwed up and now i have re-type all that *sigh*
okay let's see.
DarkRain - i used to do that visualization thing too, only i'd even visulize the cutting it's self. typically in the shower. i find showers and rain make me feel cleansed. and it's amazing how the rain always seems to come right when i need it most
i had a friend try to break myself and another friend up once, they could just be feeling left out or be a little jelous. or maybe they truly think you're being too trusting. i personally find this to be a virtue though. being able to trust and 'know' one's friends like that is something no one should give up. i lost it once before, and am so happy to be back to the 'trusting fool'.

6.11.2k4

well i managed to come out of the closet with her just eairlier today. and it went really well now two people know - the two i'm closest with - and man it feels sooooooo good! i'm so happy with my faith i could just burst, and it's horrible to have to keep that kind of joy bottled up, ya know?
she said that she's actually quite a bit based on wicca, and i can see that, except i do think they're are some rather large holes in her philosophy. but i'm not mentioning that. i think in this case it's best to set an example without trying to critize or something to that effect. besides, there is always the chance that i'm mis-reading it, ne?
i'm in the middle of something of a ... well it's a problem. i don't really feel much like going it to it right now. my thoughts are pretty ... lost right now on the subject. i'm still searching for words to explain my choice and yeah ... anyway.
i went for a walk last night, and managed to get quite a bit of it out. i really don't cry enough. i'm a bottler -_- i really need to get over that, but i can't help it. esp when there's someone else around, i hate for anyone to see me cry or know that i've been crying or anything to that effect.
i also managed to close another chapter of my life. actually saw the book close in my mind's eye. closed it, put it aside, and opened a new one. and it feels good, even though i'm left with many blank pages and a slight confusion. i know it will all be okay. i can feel the Lord and Lady at my side and i know that everything will work out. i'm mostly just letting fate takes her course right now, until i can find my words and gather my thoughts.
in other news ...
the kittens i've been looking after are getting fistier everyday i think. they're more like puppies than kittens in the way they rough house. i mean truly! you would not believe! i'm pretty sure they're all boys too, so maybe that's why i've never seen such a fisty bunch. they're all routy boys with no sister to tame the group down lol
i'm looking up runes online today. if anyone has any good sites, could you let me know? thanks. and if i find anything good in my search i'll be sure to post it, or atleast a link to it ^-^
well anyway. i'm going to post this now before it screws up on me again.

[SilverDragonLily]

i did almost nothing again...just slept in and watched some tv and then went shopping with my mom...i can't think of anything to say:-/ oddly, last night i was in a yahoo chat for religion and they were saying that all Wiccans were wanna be witches or something:o they were Neo-Pagans...there used to be nice people in those chats!! and now they are prejudice:( err maybe msn has chats...

[Wicca Chick]

wow suckie, i got a sunburn on my back!!! REALLY Sucks! Its REALLY starting to hurt.....

REALLY smart of me to sit outside for 2 hours in the sun without sunblock, hat, etc! HURTS!!!

[Faery]

1:44 pm june 12

Well nothing much happening just got me best friend over, and she's reading my writing. its boring.....
well that's all...

[Syri Whiteflame]

ow my simpathy on the sun burn. try some aloe, and don't forget to cover up next time, at the least with sun block.
that really bits about the chat rooms. wanna be witches? um didn't they know that witch and wicca are interchangable. it's bad enough to be prejudice, but it's even worse when your also completely ignorant *rolls eyes* this is why i choose insanity (hence the sig).

well i already did my entry for today, but what the heck i'll through in a little more.
i have to get offline after this entry and go finish studying for the ACT. actually, techniqually i've only study for the SAT. i was going to take both, and all i could get pretty much were SAT books (ACT ain't popular yet *shrug*) but at the last minute the SAT got all screwed up. i'll have to take it next year if i really want to take it i guess *sigh* we'll see what i get on the ACT. so yeah, i studied for the SAT ended up not taking it and now i have to brush up on a couple other areas because ACT is a four (rather than two) subject test.
i'm not too worried, because i know someone who took it and said that she passed after having practicly no sleep the night before and not much studing and i think she said she was also sick or something. yeah anyway, it's also a more rounded test so i was looking forward to it anyway.
i'm starting to get kind of worked up now, which means if i don't calm down i'll end up sitting up all night XP *bleh*
i'm going to go try some of those exam ideas (i think it was wicca chick) posted in the spells/rituals section, and maybe do a little meditating to calm me down before bed. otherwise i'll have to take an herbal sedative again lol
*closes eyes* breath Syri, it'll all be fine.
okay, good night all ^-^ and happy summer! - after this i'm officially on break ... oh wait and then there's that little 'camp' thing, but yeah that'll be fun so yay! summer! ;D

[SilverDragonLily]

ouch! sunburn...use the aloe stuff on it-thats what my mom does
the SATS are scary i took them once and got a 910 but the college i wanted to go to expected students entering a teaching career college program to have at least a 1100:( so i went to a community college instead of taking them over again...and during the test i noticed that the other people were using their calculatures when i wasn't...and i got scared and almost cried...lol then i realized we all had different types of test but were on the same section:o i felt really dumb!!!
i really didn;t do much today..i fought with my parents..lol my dad keeps saying i won't have enough credits with the classes i am taking..but they are 3 or 4 credits each, and i am taking 4 and its only the first semester..not the entire year...also i went to a counseler and she made everything out and so i know that i will get the credits i need...and i keep telling him this and he brought it up yet again:o and i said, we had this conversation before, many times..and he said no we never did...in the few..like 20 real conversations we've had together in my lifetime, i think he should be able to remember what subjects they consisted of

[Wicca Chick]

Sat June 12th, 04
10:41pm
Weather: Well, today it was really sunny and warm. Its night right now - so i cant really tell...
Mood: Quite Foul

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(Thanks silver for the Aloe suggestion! Im actually already using it, but i dont really find that it helps...my moms like yah its really effective, it doesnt seem to work on me though )

Okay, youd think i'd learn my lesson from yesterdays sunburn. Nope, still the idiot!
Today, i volunteered to help out at a horse show (like a horse competition) and it was outdoors. So, i stayed outdoors for liek aover 8 hours! Oh and go figure - what happened, no sunscreen, no hat, BURNED EVEN MORE AND AGAIN! My face, hands and shoulder are pink! Now i look like a tomato - gosh yay! *note sarcasm*

Yes yes, to top it all off, as if a sunburn wasnt enough - my toe is bleeding. Wonder why? notice how i was at a *horse show* with these dangerous beasties called *horses* (lol no really theyre seirously sweet, luv them!). Yes, one stepped on my toe and would not get off. So i had a 1000 pound + animal on my poor toe for like 20 secs maybe? Real fun - real pain, im limping all around with a bloody - to be swollen and bruised toe.

Oh and another added bonus to make thsi the best day ever (yes - obviously, sarcasm, surely u caught taht!) my friend decides to neglect me to go watch tv...wait i think again!

(i shoudl really be studying for exams... i dont have the willpower to get up and study.......its tough!)

Wow - i woudl like to commend you for reading all this if you have. Ive just been rambling on and sorry if i sound sorta foul...i am in a quite a horrible mood. lol im really sorry to have you read all this....i hope it wasnt too long and b!tchy for ya! (ahh much better after ventin it all ou there! wow this does help!) Blessings!

[SilverDragonLily]

now my dad keeps saying that he will not be able to pay for college, and that he thinks that the community collge is paying too much for their credits and classes...and again how i will not get enough credits...well i chose to go to a cummunity college so that i could save money! we are not paying for the extra dorm room, or the expensive food that colleges have..i will be staying at the house and they won't pay any extra with that..so the tuition should be somewhat less...and he is now griping and saying he doesn't have the money to pay for over priced credits and that i will not get enough credits to graduate! when the truth is, almost any scholarship and grant will turn us down-i've been searching for scholarships in poetry but they are out of date and only for those in high school-and my dad has aplied for grants but he was turned down because he makes too much money...grr
word of advice, search for a scholarship before u graduate...but i have no clue why a senior or a junior would need a scholarship when they aren't in school:-/ its dumb...

[Wicca Chick]

Silver, you'll get enough credits! Dont you worry! But it sounds like your in a tough finanace situtation right now! Didnt your parents start saving or something when you got into high school? (lol if ur from Canada, your parents should have the RESP thing!)

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Mon June 14, 04
4:30pm

Yay, i just got thru my first exam. It wasnt as hard i thought it would be....hopefully my next few exams will be easy too...tough luck though.
I should really be studying right now :S i have 2 exams tomorrow eh, come what may!

[SilverDragonLily]

oh i'm from the usa..not Canada...my dad promised and offered to pay for my college tuition...and we even paid for the first year because we put money into something...i don't know what its called..and now he says that if i can't get my credits within 4 years and i have to go 5 years, then i will have to pay for that 5th year and any year afterwards...
and now he is griping about the cost of the credits at the college i chose...but i chose that college like my teachers told me to do in order to SAVE money..and now he is griping and i have some money saved up in a bank thing...its just i was saving that for when i was out of college and would need something to live off of until i got enough money to be stable...and anyhow he promised the same deal to my sister, but she chose not to go to college...lol and grants say he doesn't show financial need..so i have no idea how to prove to scholarships that we have financial need:-/
on to what i actually did today..lol
well my mom took my nieces to the dentist..so i was stuck at home until after 2pm...i just watched tv...nothing much or even slightly interesting...yet i am surprised at how many times soap opera characters can die lol and then i took my mom to the store again-my nieces drank most of the milk and ate what bread we had left so we had to get more...they visited last night and basically tore me apart they are so rough!! the one bites...and kicks...the other hits as well as kicks...and they wanted me to visit them in the living room...which i tired to avoid without success:-/ well...lets say they jumped on me, pulled my hair several times, kicked me and pushed me around...even jumped on my stomach and hit my knee...which really hurt!! ouch...and did i mention...these little animals are only 4 and 5 years old:o
it rained recently today and i sat out on the porch watching and listening to the rain-and got soaked in the process lol, and even watched 2 bunnies hop around in the grass...but my mom wants to kill them because they attack her plants

[Faery]

june 15th 5:05pm

Well I've been busy busy busy! That's why you probably havent seen me around.
On sunday, I went to a back burn, with my brigad these people had a lot a grass and last summer there was a fire and it nearly destroyed their whole house I was there too. So they called us in so that it won't happen again in next summer. so that day I was 9 to 6. On monday I was out with friends practicauly the whole day. Today I went to school, and well that wasn't very entertaining at all.

Well that's it for today.

[Wicca Chick]

(yah i was wondering where you were too faery! glad to know your ok!)

June 15th, 4:15pm

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Yay, 2 more exams done.....but nuts i got into a load of trouble. Me and this girl were talking in the exam and we were accused of cheating, phew what luck eh! I didnt even stay and hear it (i was done my exam) so i just walked away as the teacher kept yellng, eheh she didnt even care! What luck!

Well i only have 1 more exam and than schools over! Urgh, but i think its the one of the worst ones - Math really, i dont like it at all. Im sooo bad at it and right now, i only get half of it and i really dont wanna end up with a 50%. And i should really be studyhing, but i dont see any point, im not going to get it anyways no matter how much i stare at the txtbk. (u know, whats the point anyways? will we ever use like parabolas or quadratic functions EVER agian?! i doubt it, its pretty pointless to me!)

[SilverDragonLily]

lol! i hated trigonometry..and i agree that it is pointless because the entire time i was thinking...uhh when will i need to know this..or when, in my life, will i need to use this...*imagines self at 30 with 2 children..and in the middle of dinner i say.."honey..i wonder how tall the house is...i could use that shadow to find the cos of the angle..and eventually find out how tall our house is:o wow i am so happy i took trigonomety...i just love measuing buildings and knowing how to find the sides of triangles"* lol and i have no idea how to study for math tests:-/ and furthermore...the teacher could not teach...what he showed us on the board was not in our homework..the board things he was explaining was so simple...then the homework was so different and seemed to have nothing to do with our class lectures...it seemed pointless but i passed and had an extra credit...
my mom and i might go shopping tommorow but its supposed to rain:-/...then again she told me it was going to rain today..but it never did...so i wasted a day expecting it to rain:o lol and now that i am out of school..there is nothing to do...its so boring...