Post by anniemiss2009 on Oct 10, 2011 20:22:24 GMT -5
**PLEASE DISREGARD THE POLL UP TOP, I'M NOT USED TO THE INTERFACE YET AND I REALIZED I COULDN'T DELETE IT AFTER I FINISHED TYPING MY POST. SORRY IN ADVANCE 
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Well, I'l like to start off by saying "hello". My name is Van short for and I was raised in a Jehovah Witness house hold. I was even baptized. I'm sure many of you know of them, because quite frankly who hasn't.
I was born and raised in this doctrine all my life. It was all I knew. But as I grew up things changed. Some things about it were good, but some things I never always agreed with. Every time I would express this I would get lectured and told to stay away from it. Books (like Animorphs, a book I loved years ago), music (Silver Chairs debut album frog stop), and tv was strictly (by strictly I mean by "bible standards") monitored if it wasn't wholesome or Godly. I had to hide many books, and music and certain things from my family in ordered not to be shunned. I never could associate with friends outside of my religion. Limiting my social interaction when I was very young, until my late twenties.
My point is. I strongly feel Wicca is my calling. Ever since my best friend, Jedi, as i like to refer to her, opened my eyes to other cultures and beliefs, but nothing has quite strike me as Wicca. To me it's such a beautiful path/religion. So free of the heart and mind. I always was a day dreamer believing that there was something more spiritually. Especially when I was dragged to kingdom hall meetings.
I'm at a transitional period now. I've read books and articles on the practice of Wicca. As I'm typing this I'm reading Scott Cunningham's Wicca: A guide for the solitary practitioner.
Little by little over the years, I've let the bits that I've learned of it sink in. I was baptized as a J.W. when I was 18, I'm now 29 and had since left the organization--for good--since I was 20. And I've been spiritually dead ever since. Trying to find my path and all this time Wicca seemed draw me in. I've now have some alter materials and practicing some meditation techniques. I'm still reading and learning. But deep down I feel this is it.
I'm sorry for all this rambling. I've been holding these feelings in for years, and when you've been raised in a family that has a strict religion. It's just that...It's really really hard, emotionally and spiritually. You have question everything you've been taught. I constantly think "what if I'm wrong" stuck in my head. I still have nightmares about Armageddon. I have lived my life in anxiety and depression. But I think I'm getting beyond that point where I have to (or feel to) make my move.
I just wanted to reach out to somebody who has had similar experiences like this or know of someone. I want to learn the ways of wicca, so I'm sort of looking for pioneers as well for their advice and wisdom.
Blessed be!
** Well, I'l like to start off by saying "hello". My name is Van short for and I was raised in a Jehovah Witness house hold. I was even baptized. I'm sure many of you know of them, because quite frankly who hasn't. I was born and raised in this doctrine all my life. It was all I knew. But as I grew up things changed. Some things about it were good, but some things I never always agreed with. Every time I would express this I would get lectured and told to stay away from it. Books (like Animorphs, a book I loved years ago), music (Silver Chairs debut album frog stop), and tv was strictly (by strictly I mean by "bible standards") monitored if it wasn't wholesome or Godly. I had to hide many books, and music and certain things from my family in ordered not to be shunned. I never could associate with friends outside of my religion. Limiting my social interaction when I was very young, until my late twenties.
My point is. I strongly feel Wicca is my calling. Ever since my best friend, Jedi, as i like to refer to her, opened my eyes to other cultures and beliefs, but nothing has quite strike me as Wicca. To me it's such a beautiful path/religion. So free of the heart and mind. I always was a day dreamer believing that there was something more spiritually. Especially when I was dragged to kingdom hall meetings.
I'm at a transitional period now. I've read books and articles on the practice of Wicca. As I'm typing this I'm reading Scott Cunningham's Wicca: A guide for the solitary practitioner.
Little by little over the years, I've let the bits that I've learned of it sink in. I was baptized as a J.W. when I was 18, I'm now 29 and had since left the organization--for good--since I was 20. And I've been spiritually dead ever since. Trying to find my path and all this time Wicca seemed draw me in. I've now have some alter materials and practicing some meditation techniques. I'm still reading and learning. But deep down I feel this is it.
I'm sorry for all this rambling. I've been holding these feelings in for years, and when you've been raised in a family that has a strict religion. It's just that...It's really really hard, emotionally and spiritually. You have question everything you've been taught. I constantly think "what if I'm wrong" stuck in my head. I still have nightmares about Armageddon. I have lived my life in anxiety and depression. But I think I'm getting beyond that point where I have to (or feel to) make my move.
I just wanted to reach out to somebody who has had similar experiences like this or know of someone. I want to learn the ways of wicca, so I'm sort of looking for pioneers as well for their advice and wisdom.
Blessed be!